~ Chapter 48: Self-destruction (Part 2) ~
Kataryna stopped before turning the knob and looked back at me.
“Do we still appear as friends when looked at with your skill?” she asked.
I looked down and mutter the words “Show my status menu.”
The ability activated, and I saw it:
[Name]: Alkelios Yatagai
[Magic Excellence]: 1%+9%+9%+13.8%+9%+3%
[Skills]: Show? Y/N
[Skill Points]: 42
[Stat Points]: 1810
The stats were a bit different from when I last saw them, and it appeared as though Iolaus was putting in some real effort in growing stronger, but everyone gained a few more points since that time when we registered as adventurers at the Guild.
“Am I still there?” she asked me.
“Yes...” I replied.
“Then that's the real truth of the world around you. Not what other people say... Alkelios think well about it, and when you made up your mind leave a message for me with Collentra. I'll come speak with you then. Listen, I left you on the table some gold coins to use as you please. You can get drunk with it, replace your gear and go hunt monsters, I don't care what you do with it as long as it helps you get over this state you are in. Also, don't worry about your meals or fees for the room at this inn. I'll pay for all of it... I'm doing all of this because I consider myself to be your friend.” Kataryna said and then left the room.
I was left alone to my own thoughts. For a moment, I actually thought she or Kleo was going to burst inside and make some sort of joke out of all this, maybe pull a prank, but no one came.
I kept staring at the status window and the skill points I never used. Everything seemed so ridiculous to me right now, all of these stat points, everything. When I remembered the duel between me and Draejan, I couldn't even believe how much of an idiot I was because I wasn't thinking straight... Well, I wasn't thinking straight even now, so all I could do was laugh at myself.
Then, as the sky darkened, I looked outside at the dragons flying up in the sky. They looked so free and strong, but I knew I alone could probably take down all of them. This status window was that ridiculous. It simply didn't make any sense for me... none at all. Even my loss was big mystery.
Did I even use all of my power back then? I wondered.
Strange, but the more I thought about it, the more I felt like I was meant to lose... like I wasn't ready to win.
When night came, and the moon was up in the sky, I opened my status window again and looked at those numbers.
“Assigns all Stat Points... to Luck.” I said.
“Of course.” I laughed.
When I stopped, I ordered again. “Assign all Stat Points to...” I stopped... a thought crossed through my mind Are you sure? This could spell out your doom? I clenched my fists and tossed it aside. “Yes, I'm sure... What's the worse that can happen to me.” I glared down at the blanket.
This was the so-called point of self-destruction when one was overwhelmed by the stress, depression, and the very situation of their daily lives. When one suffered a shock so powerful they didn't see any hope in trying to become better, so all they did was destroy their chances for a future in the hope of being completely crushed by the bitter state their were in... and maybe... someone would end them.
I was in that state at that moment. I wasn't thinking straight. I wasn't hoping to get better or change for the better.
“Assign all Stat Points to... Magic.” I said.
Then I opened the skill window.
“I wish... I wish with all of my being to acquire the most dangerous and destructive of all spells in this list.” I said.
So I scrolled down randomly and then tested out my Luck and picked one.
[Itsy Bitsy BOOM!] was the name of the new skill I picked.
[Do you wish to spend 35 points to acquire this? Y/N]
[Are you sure?]
This was the first time I was asked something like that, so it made me even more determined to take it. Besides, like this, I would also kick my chance at becoming half-dragon. No way I would be able to gain enough points now unless I went outside to hunt seriously. But something like that was impossible for the current 'me'.
“Let's see what I got...” I said and opened the skill list.
[Itsy Bitsy BOOM!] [Max Level]: Creates a CONTAINABLE Thermonuclear explosion with the equivalent of 100 Megatons TNT using the fission of a Magic Energy Core boosted by the fusion of a Deuterium and Tritium gases. [WARNING! This skill will cause nuclear fallout on a 25 km area around Point 0 of the Blast.][CONTAINMENT is achieved through the usage of 3 specialized barrier domes. The first one will contain the Fireball, which can reach a maximum of 16 km in radius from the Point 0 of the Blast. The second one will contain the heat and a part of the shockwave, spanning at 20 km in radius from the Point 0 of the Blast. The third and final dome barrier spans at 25 km in radius around the Point 0 of the Blast and has the purpose of stopping any Radiation that may spread farther than this.][WARNING! DO NOT use INDOORS!!! Like seriously! It's a pain to stick continents back together, so do this God-like a favor and don't pop this thing inside a cave or a dungeon!][Cost: 10000 Magic Energy Points]
After I finished reading the description, and more importantly the cost value, I couldn't help but burst out into a loud laughter. Unfortunately, from all the laughing, I ended up crying. My stupid Luck didn't even let me self-destruct...
“What's up with this messed up situation?” I said and then continued to cry until I fell asleep.
The next day, I didn't leave my room... nor the following one.
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