~ Chapter 47: Friendly talk (Part 2) ~
“Sorry... Although I'm the one who usually tells others not to speak in riddles, in the end, it seems like I failed to listen to my own words.” I rubbed the back of my head and showed her a weak smile.
“Then please speak without them... Maybe like that I can understand.” she told me.
“Before talking about a woman's strength, I think I need to speak of your strength as a dragoness. I don't know if anyone told you this, but being Awakened has more to do with the basic meaning of the word than it has to do with physically growing up. To Awaken means to find that which is true to yourself. It means to become the one that is true to the voice that is hidden within your heart.” I said.
“Is this true?” she furrowed her brow.
“It was a belief of Zerudan, but one which I didn't find in Albeyater. Maybe nobody bothered to verify it, however, I can prove it very simply. How many dragons you know before having Awakened?” I asked.
“Several.” she replied.
“Did you notice how they changed after Awakening? Their personality was mostly the same, but there were some key aspects which made them look different. In some case, they probably estranged themselves completely from you, did they not?” I asked.
“Yes, but isn't that because they simply Awakened and saw me only as a child?” she asked.
I shook my head.
“Dragons aren't idiots. In general, our instincts are very good. For us those who have went past the age of body maturity and entered the Pre-Awakened period, the one which you are experiencing now, are seen as dragons who have yet to find their inner truth. They are dragons who still put on a very thick mask and forbid themselves from doing many things.” I explained.
“What?” she replied confused.
“Awakening means to be true to yourself. Just remember this, and whenever you will find yourself going against what you believe on the inside... or what your heart and soul truly wish to do, try and act like them for once. You might unexpectedly find yourself clearing the conditions to Awaken little by little.” I smiled and then patted her head “That's why you are seen as a child.”
She furrowed her brow and looked down at the ground.
“If it only were that simple... Maybe I'm just not destined to Awaken.” she grumbled.
“Not true.” I shook my head.
“It is true, after all... after all...” she hiccuped “If I was Awakened and had more power... If I wasn't so weak... I could have stopped the duel... I could have protected Alkelios, and he... he wouldn't have said 'goodbye' to me!” she retorted as tears began to flow down her cheeks.
I got up and went over to the fire to check the meat. It was almost done, so I waited there for a moment. Once it was ready, I gathered it on a plate and walked back to Seryanna. I placed the plate between us and took a bite out of one piece of grilled meat.
“It's good.” I said.
She took one piece as well. Her stomach was demanding it through a noisy protest.
We ate all of it in silence. Once we were full, we washed our hands in the river, and I took out a few juicy fruits to quench our thirst with them. By now, the sky had completely darkened. It was night.
“I don't think you are to blame about what happened to Alkelios. He's someone who needs to learn how to handle himself. The strength one holds within their grasp is dependent on many things, including certain life changing decisions.” I said as I tossed another stone in the river; it skipped three times.
“No, it's my fault... I was too weak... He's just a human.” she grumbled.
“Aren't you looking down on him now?” I asked with a raised eyebrow.
“I would never...” she stopped mid-sentence “Yes... I just did that, didn't I?” she asked.
“Of all people I should have been the one to never think like this!” she growled and grabbing a pebble next to her, she tossed it in the river; it skipped seven times.
“Don't be so hard on yourself.” I told her.
“Then... What should I do, Kataryna? What can I do? I can't even keep a hold onto my own lover!” she cried out and hid her face in her palms.
Whimpers escaped her lips as more tears gathered and flowed down her cheeks.
“Learn to be what you are...” I told her with a smile.
“What I am? A woman?” she asked.
“A Royal Knight who is also a woman that fell in love with a human from another world.” I replied.
“That sounds weird.” she replied.
“Learn all parts of it, and you won't have trouble standing up even against someone like Draejan.” I smirked.
“How? He's far stronger than me!”
“Then grow in strength. Fight, battle, explore Dungeons if you have to. Do anything to become stronger.” I told her.
“But he has tied up all the political loose ends! I can't do anything against him!” she added the second excuse.
“Then learn to undo them. Become cunning and skillful at gathering information. Learn to read your friends and enemies, then use that against them. Learn the laws.” I told her.
“But I'm a Royal Knight... my duties are towards the Third Princess.” she whimpered.
“Rely on your friends to help you in your time of need.” I told her.
“You... you're telling me that I can't back away... that there's still hope? Do you realize what you're asking me to do?” she asked.
“To be yourself, but if you don't believe me... for now, simply wait.” I closed my eyes and laid down on the shore.
“Wait... for what?” she asked.
“For Alkelios... or his reply to your desire.” I said.
“My desire?” she asked.
“You want to claim that human as yours don't you?” I asked.
When I opened my eyes and looked at her, she was red as a tomato.
“You want to take Alkelios in your embrace, wrap your tail around him, and hiss like a crazy dragoness at any other woman that dares to approach him. Me excluded, of course.” I giggled.
“What? I would never...” she said, but I stopped her when she saw me raise an eyebrow at her.
“You would never what? Claim him as yours? Then why suffer and cry here if you don't want him. Toss him over to another woman. Let him become their problem now.” I shrugged.
“How can you say that!” she retorted.
“Then? Are you saying that you won't hand him over to another?” I asked.
“I didn't exactly...” she stopped and looked down, knitting her brows.
I let out another sigh.
Maybe she's not ready yet? I wondered.
This whole thing could have been a bit too early, but we were at a good start for now. Seryanna needed to sort out her own feelings and think about what she wanted about her future, but if I left her now, she would surely think of something stupid, so I decided to give her some food for her thoughts.
“This may be a bit too soon or just at the right time, however, it's clear that both you and Alkelios are going through a very difficult period. In my eyes, all of this isn't that much of a big deal, but this is just me. I'm a Breakthrough Awakened and my mind doesn't always follow the same track as yours does. Since it's like this, however, why don't you agree on doing a little something for me until you get a reply from Alkelios regarding the two of you?” I asked.
“But he's forbidden from seeing me...” she said.
“Forget about that. Just concentrate on what I said and take it as something quite possible. What do you say?” I asked.
“Hm...” she rubbed her chin and looked down at the ground.
The redhead surely took her time to answer, but I didn't voice out my complain. The more I rushed her now, the higher the chances of her breaking down and returning to her little blanket cocoon.
“Alright, I'm going to trust because you are my friend.” she nodded.
Friends, huh? I thought.
It was good to know I had friends again, but this time, I wasn't going to lose them to some idiotic political games. Not only was I far more powerful now, but I also knew how to bring those noisy mouths of theirs to a complete stop whenever I wanted to.
“While I deal with Alkelios and pull an answer out of him in regard to where he wants the two of you to move from now on, you think about the same thing. Just think carefully and don't bother about the duel's result and requirements. Don't even bother about putting Alkelios' political and military strength into balance with others, just think of this strictly from the point of view as Seryanna Draketerus the dragoness. Not the Royal Knight, not the noble, not the vengeful warrior, just the woman who fell in love with a man. After you thought about it, set up a plan on how you wish to obtain that. Add more to your current strength and get rid of your weaknesses by improve yourself. If you are weak, then grow more powerful. If you don't have enough allies, then make more. If you aren't confident enough, then give yourself reasons to be. Build yourself up little by little, step by step and don't worry about the end result, alright?” I explained to her.
“I think I understand... Erm can you repeat it again?” she asked tilting her head to the left.
“Sure.” I showed her a smile and repeated myself.
From the way I saw things, Seryanna wasn't a dragoness who had trouble understanding such things, however, there were a lot of new objectives and tasks she had to take into account from now on. Many of them were things she never bothered doing with anyone else, however, what I told her was the best and fastest way she could take without going through an endless drama of who knew how many years to pass. Alkelios would certainly not leave Drakaria, and the stubborn dragoness would end up meeting him sooner or later. A single night of passion was all they needed then in order to spark things up again, but at that time, more drama would ensue as a result of their unsolved problems, and I honestly had neither the time nor patience to handle all of it. That was why I was currently drilling my advice in Seryanna's thick noggin.
Once the redhead dragoness was on her way, I planned on doing the same with Alkelios.
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